I now blame this mug which i drink tea and coffee from for my entire lack of ambition in life.
Subliminally unknown to me, i've been taking it as gospel and putting it into practice every day.
Damn you Homer Simpson.
Anyway, i've now decided tonight not to go to college tomorrow.
I won't set my alarm and hopefully i wont wake up at 8am with a great feeling of guilt and regret knowing that i should be up getting ready.
I'll just sleep through it ^_^
I really don't like 2nd year, no infact what i don't like is my poor work ethnic and low self belief.
I'm sure if i focused and put my mind to it i could do well in my projects. But my heart just ain't in it right now.
The thing our lecturer always used to say to us (and still does) is that we really have to want this.
We have to want to learn, want to progress, want to be there.
And i really don't feel like i want to at all anymore.
I've found myself since i've been here, even more so distracted than at home. Cause for 1 thing i have a lot more to do for myself like cooking and cleaning.
Then as soon as i get some free time i'll either distract my mind with the laptop or just leave and go out on my bike for an hour or more.
I defiantly feel happy when i just go out on my bike and take my camera along.
I'll take photos like these and just enjoy the scenery around me.
A few moments when you stand there looking at everything, it's that way you feel like you could be the only person in the world. No worries, no responsibilities, nothing at all.
It's just really relaxing down by the clyde, i go there all the time now.
Didn't realise how much of a photo maniac i am. I've missed having a camera SO, SO much.
And now i've got one =]
It's pretty good, still has some things i'm not overly keen on. But i've realised that to get my perfect camera, i'll need to design the thing myself and have lots of money to spend.
And that isn't going to happen.
It does however take pretty good closeups. Takes a while to focus some times, but every camera i've had is like that. Not quite as close as i like to go, but y'know for a digital camera i'm fairly impressed.
Get confused.
Strangely today i left my camera and my ipod when i went out on my bike.
I went to tkmaxx to get a new bag for college, since the last one just broke. FAILURE.
It was so bad man, you had to be there to see it happen >_<
Went there cause i'm a cheap ass student now (and they have cool backpacks, tbh)
But somehow since i went alone and my conscience wasn't shouting loud enough at me NOT to go into the trainer section i quickly found myself there looking along rows and rows of trainers.
Just looking...
D=
I ended up buying a pair. HAH.
That's me not eating for a week. I might keep them though until my birthday and see if anyone wants to give me the £30 for them.
Slyyyy, i know.
Like?
i can't help but think they're a wee bit...GAY.
Purple isn't that bad, right?
Who gives a fuck, i think they're teh bollokz!
The carpet in my glasgow room is horrendous, i knowww.
I think my puke would make a nicer floor covering than that shiat.
Hmmm, kind of forgot my next point.
Obviously wasn't all that..... important.
LIE, i remember and it is important.
New car.
GAHHHH.
LIFE IS A MOTHERFUCKER.
Now that i CAN drive, near enough ready for my test and could get practice without forking out for lessons, i can't drive the car =/
Unless i get a job and earn enough money to pay insurance.
I think it might be worth it. Cause i want a road trip SO much.
All on my ownsome, down south, up north. Just anywhere that i can get to from a motorway.
Got my theory test on the 12th of October.
Wise doing it the day after my birthday? NO, not at all.
So i think deffinatly the alcohol wont be flowing too much that night. Pressure's on. Since my gran paid it for me as part of my birthday, so i don't want to fail then i'll feel like i let her down too.
Anyway i think i'll just go to bed now.
This wee hottie's calling on me.
Bahaha, how thick as shit would you need to be to believe that? >__________<
It's a popup btw. Just incase you thought i was some porn IM addict or summat.
My livejournal has been rendered obsolete now.
Anyways.
Over and out sonny jim.
