Just there i came across a documentary on BBC3 about these 3 guys with autism.
One was 16, another 25 and 24? I think.
But anyway the youngest one started college and didn't have any friends and was going on about how he wasn't too social with people cause he didn't like talking too much.
He could easily be my friend i was thinking. Cause i'm not too much of a chatty person either at first.
Then in the end up he is in a band with college friends and having a good time.
I had 1 "friend" in college then i dropped out -_-
Another guy gets work experience in asda and 3 months later he gets offered a job there where they will pay them, he also moved out of his house and lives in shared accomidation with other autistic people.
I applied to asda and got turned down, i moved out too and my life went to shit -_-
The 3rd guy chats online and texts this girl that he knows, she is autistic too and he meets her for her birthday/valentines with her pals and that and they have a good time.
I'm fucking single -_-
Maybe watching a programme about people with "disabilities" achieve things in life that i've yet to accomplish should encourage me to get a fucking move on with my life, but really all i can take from it right now is that watching that programme was just one MASSIVE FUCKING KICK IN THE BALLS.
My life really is shitter than i even realised.
I've been smoking today.
I've stocked up on alcohol too.
I might go drink and smoke myself away tomorrow even more than tonight.
